Thursday, July 13, 2017

Some Soul Searching

Dear You,

The voids that distance creates are at times, unbearable. You feel the strong urge to leave everything and fly away or maybe just to shut down and sleep. Any which way, you don't feel like your truest self. Something in you keeps missing when you listen to some song that strings back to that someone or you visit a place which is lined up with their memories. You unknowingly carry their presence everywhere you go. Staring at the phone and hoping for their text to pop up doesn't help and that badly wanted familiar knock on the door never happens. You replay the conversations in your mind several times and smile at all cute instances. Closing your eyes and wondering what would they be doing anyway?! These walls seem to become your best friends, they listen patiently and don't judge you or have an important pending task to make you continue the episode later. You can pour out to them anytime. Walls and air and these objects, they help you find comfort near them. Don't mind you staring at them like a lost kitten too.

And finally, when the day draws nearer, you feel a weird emptiness, these past days without physical closeness, you somehow become a warrior. Fighting battles with the inner conflicts, consoling your own self, blaming some xyz for all that's happening, and being sleepless but tired.
You lose the talks that you thought you'll say and struggle with words that you'll utter. Anxiety and tension take over, making you, maybe, change your decision.
Then the good ol' heart strikes in and kicks you with its tiny vein pumping some sense and much-required confidence in your being. You gather the lost courage, walking up to them, to feel the same way as before. Kissing them goodbye was genuinely the hardest thing ever. This moment, seeing them back turns out to be priceless. Don't miss it, you've earned it with all your will.

With Love, Me.

Listen to the song entitled Dear Zindagi from the beautiful movie Dear Zindagi here

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